Loneliness

One of the worst feelings ever is loneliness... feeling lonely and homeless although you never left your home. For the past few years one by one of my family members started a new life in a new country, so we are latterly spreat all over the world, and now after my mom went to visit one of my brother in another continent I'm all alone without my family although I never left my country. This new year was a very sad one this year, and what made it worse is that my husband - who is a commercial pilot- should have come on NYE  but had a change of route and couldn't return back home as scheduled. Kids were so disappointed by the news, I tried to do my best to cheer them up but I myself was broken inside so they didn't feel my enthusiasm. I sometimes ask myself what if I took my family too and start a new life in another country? Will I be that lonely there too? Will I be feeling broken hearted on events and celebrations because I am away?
I don't think leaving by choice will be more difficult than being left out in your own home. But all I pray for is that may be some day me and my kids beeing here will be the motive for everyone to come back and be reunited.  Who knows....