Working

Before my marriage, I've worked for 3 years as a teaching assistant in a well known private academy.I was as everyone said, a good teacher. I worked there till i gave birth to my first daughter, then I took my maternity leave, a 3 months leave followed by a whole year. Everyone told me that I wont't be able to tolerate staying at home for a whole year and that I'll be back before that. After the year ended I felt that my daughter needs me for another year, after that I gave birth to my son. Then I took 2 years this time. Then I found out that I don't want to become a working mom, I want to be a Mom, a home stayed Mom. There's nothing wrong with staying at home raising your children. I made a list of pros and cons, and I found out that I'm not the person who can handle a full time job and being a full time Mom. I'm not a lazy person at all, but why do I have to live 2 lives? 2 hectic lives? I won't be a good teacher as I used to be nor a good Mom for my children, and for what? The earning is not that good it won't even pay for the maid! So I decided to submit my resignation. But they refused it twice and gave me 4 years off. But finally they accepted it. That day was so complicated for me, I was torn between two feelings, one of relief that I'm finally free, and the other of longing. I've even shredded some tears. But even though people says I'm a nut to leave a respectful stabilized job to stay at home, and that one day I'll regret it. I'm not upset or even slightly remorse, for taking this step, cause I know myself and my capabilities, and I know that I'm not the kind of person who'll let herself getting bored. I'm resourceful, and I have lots of Hobbies and I can make myself busy very easily :). I loved my job, but I love my house and children more, and I can tolerate being a little bit bored, but I won't have peace with myself if my children miss my presence or feel neglected. I left my job as a good teacher and respected by everyone, and that's the way I wanted to be, always remembered as a hard worker and an intelligent person. Now I have to build a good memory in my children's life as a devoted loving mother. I had my time, now it's theirs.